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Emma

What would you like people to know about how you are doing or feeling now?

In the days following the marathon, I remember distinctly feeling that I would never feel safe again. I couldn't ever shake the feeling that danger was imminent. My thoughts often drifted back to the moment the bomb exploded and the chaos that ensured; would it happen again? Would it happen here? It was scary. 

Five years later, and I don't think I'll even shake that feeling completely. But I know that I'm stronger and less afraid. 

In the past five years, I have continued to feel inspired by my close friends who have also endured similar feelings. They have taught me about strength, and bravery. They have shown me that I don't have to go through this alone. 

What would you like to say to the Greater Boston community in regards to the support you received following April 15, 2013?

Thank you.

I continue to feel overwhelmed by the love, generosity, and spirit that the Greater Boston community has extended to me. Two event specifically have impacted me profoundly. The Vantage Cruise allowed me to foster deep friendships with other members of the community, which led me to run the Boston Marathon on 2014. The trainings were difficult, but they gave me a sense of purpose and allowed me to alter the meaning of a very difficult day.

I continue to feel overwhelmed by the love, generosity, and spirit that the Greater Boston community has extended to me.

This is my first year since the marathon bombings that I have not been in Boston. In fact, I'm living abroad - a dream that I have always had but never quite felt brave enough to execute until now. Every year since it happened, I have returned to the same spot I stood on April 15 - Forum Patio, next to the entrance - and I let all the emotion in. It's a moment I have lived from every angle - in my memory, on the news, through court testimony, in movies, youtube - and it's a moment I desperately try to forget. On the anniversary, I take a minute to let it all in, to honor those that were not as lucky as me, and to try and wrap my head around that awful moment.